oh, if you just knew! :o

Whoa, I've been in a hospital. Nice adventure, don't you think so? All because of food poisoning or something, phi! For the first time I had an i.v. it wasn't so bad as I supposed, actually it made me stronger and I appreciate this.
    Today W told me a really nice story! (really). From then, my opinion about one of my classmates has changed. She is a  s****, seriously. How she could tract him like that? Doesn't she have any heart?
                      What's better, today we had pictures to school. Ohmy! L is terribly handsome, moreover; he is tall and very, very slim. He's a lucky. No, I'm not jealous, I wish him good, good luck! :)
Finally home, I'm glad for this. Of course, my first impression when I came home was like: Oh, it's so, so dirty here. Gotta clean up here!
   I'm certainly sure that my breadbasket has dancing skills. If it hadn't, it wouldn't have danced waltz!

what a beautiful morning

I started to eat breakfast again :) Maybe it is really more healthful. I also do exercises and drink a lot of water. I need to be on fresh air, and then everything would be all right. Today will be day of resting, studying, eating, smiling and exercises. If I have some time, I will try to meet with Ola. It would be great.
                   Yesterday I was at concert of Violent Display. I think that it was OK, just like I supposed to be; yelling to microphone and dancing pogo. Only one thing has surprised me; K said that my look has changed. Probably he is right. I see myself everyday, so I have not noticed any change. Let's hope it was a g o o d change. I have almost forgotten that O was so pushy to me. When I came back I learned a little bit and did some exercises, I am proud of myself that I did not give up.
                                                                                  From few days I have read a lot. I have chosen mainly books of M. Musierowicz ( yesterday I have just ended her third novel). Today I am going to start "Ferdydurke" , I think it is going to be also great.

       I am a good kid since New Year. You see, my method is working. If you start to be a little bad, (but your soul is good) then you will want to be good. Now I am a really nice and happy kid and I just love it. My conscience is so clear without counting few thoughts.
                         I am going to end my note, because I will start to do some mock exams. I wish you a very nice and happy day!

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I am not a typical person ( it's scientifically  proven) and I looove it! <3 Well, what can I write about? Blog is about my thoughts and emotions. The first one; hmm, my main emotion is to kill h i m! I hate him! He huggs to every girl in school, little fucker! I wasted time for him, no I didn't. Oh, myyyy! If I could only be a volcano in my future, I certainly would be. I can explode as hell. (it's scientifically proven) I love my life, but I live too much in a loneliness and I don't like it. I also don't like it when I'm unkind for someone. I should waste my energy. Tomorrow - time with sister. Saturday- concert (?). Sunday- Ola(?) And again monday. Not that I don't like school. Hmm. Hmm. Hmm.Hmm.
I've made this blog to improve my English. However, I'm writing some bullshits, I know. I need something or someone or I don't know what. Off-center psyche.

well, I am a madman

I am a girl who you will never meet in your life. I am unusual as hell (or maybe it is my imagination). I love people and love is my life. But sometimes I am such a pussy. Oh no,no,no, no! And a little bit closed, sometimes. Oh god, oh goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood! I should write things with more sense. I should. I probably write now like an idiot with power of emotion. I know I SHOULD NOT write with so much emotions. I should be calmer. Smarert. More girlish. But i do NOT want to. That's it. Dottt! Oh, I am such a PoKeMoN! ~~ +-+

hello, it's me again!

I need to read more! I really need to! Reading is my supermegapassion, trust me. When I read, nothing really matters. Hmm, what I can write about in t h i s note. Maybe I will write about my mum? Nobody asks you :p
                My mum is my great, lovely mummy! Despite I am often rude for her, she is always good to me. She would do a n y t h i n g for me, because she loves me very much. Well, not only me, but the rest of my siblings also (:
              Her name is Alice. Somehow, she reminds me Alice from "Alice in a wonderland". No, not from look but just because of her temper.
My Alice isn't really pretty. She was the prettiest girl in the city but after unsuccessful marriage, she got fat and ,mhm, she stopped to take care of herself. That's right; my mum isn't pretty as most of normal mums. However, she has something nice in her soul, because every mate or my friend likes her. Maybe that's because she is a very kind person. She always smiles and talks to my friends. She also likes when they come to my home. I think that she thinks then that her life isn't bad at all. She has friends at home. Oh, I love my mom! Even besides all her disadvantages (she has them a loooot!). Sleeping all day, overeating, making messes are only few one, only few.
I love her even in spite of her scare of world. I do not know what she is afraid of... Ok, I know. World had hurt her, that's why she gave up. But, oh my! People had been more hurt on this world, a lot more! She was also mental. Not so funny. Everybody yells at her (me too) but it doesn't work. Nothing doesn't work.... but i love her.

I've got a pocket full of happypills

I finally opened my coursework and started to learn English. I almost forgot that I supposed to study English. How could I? I know, it is a terribly shame. However; I am working on it and hope that it is not going to suck at all in US. Haha, is going to be funny :d What is the day today? Hmm, 20th of March. April is coming, slowly but it is! I am so glad. I need to say about how I spend money from my scholarship. On my clothes! :p I bought sweater, t-shirt and pants but I am also going to buy boiler suit, ballerinas and a belt ^^ From scientific things I will buy: games, cds, books and pens, pencils etc. Wonderfuul! :))
Ok, now I will say, how I am so happy that I live. I love my life so much. Really! It is going great. Oh, and tomorrow I need to meet him, cause I am missing my little crazyman *.*

I am a better man!

If you read, your life completely changes. Why? Because you discover beautiful things in boring. For example you claim that history is really uninteresting. When you read some historical books, your opinion usually changes. By reading, everything take in magic and it's wonderful! It also makes you more intelligent. Haha :x I love doing it. When I read, I fall into another world and completely forget my name. The same is with maths. When I start to think, I don't want to even think about the end. Yep, beginnings are always the most difficult. We just have to break them and go on. That's at least in my case :d
Life is wonderful. It is really nice to feel gratefulness for our lives in every second. Now I really do. I want to live and I love to live. Thank you, A. Even when you don't do much  at all, you helped me. Now I want to live and kiss you. However, I hate that I miss you even after 2 minutes.  Oh, I know, I sound childish. Like a little stupid kid. I am really interested in what you think about me. Do you think  about me? Tell me, I want to hear it. I want to hear that you need me and you love me. It would be more than beautiful!

forget about it, kiss me!

Today nothing happened. It was a nice day, nothing more. Ok, we had proof exams from English, nothing more. But what the fuck I want? Life is as it is. If you want to be good at something you need to do it day by day through years... And for time to time you hang out with friends or something. If you do it everyday, you would be bored even of parties. Parties are so special just because they are threw not so often. The same is with kissessssss. Muahhhhhh, muahhhhhh, muaahhhhhh. Aha, nice!

If you have it, you will never want to lose it!

This day was a FUCKING day! :d :d It finally happened what it was to happen.  However, I'm a little bit disappointed. It should happen in another way. More romantic and more spontaneous. He also should be more commitment! Probably I don't adore him :c Ok, this wouldn't be a great relationship, I think. It would rather suck. But in some another way, it was wooohooo! Oh, I don't know. Next time it won't be my turn. Definitely! What's more; Pauline were laying on my bed with her boyfriend as always. Life is wonderful, really! You just have to have some reasons and friends to live!

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Fuck! I need to do something right now, in the opposite way, I will go nuts! No jokes. My life is a shit. Shit, shit, shit! Just sleeping, learning, reading and cleaning. Oh my, and that's almost it! It can't be! I need to do something that I love, but not in a passive way. I need to actively do something. Sport? Ok, it's getting warmer. Ok, ok. Soccer? Ok,ok. I need to work at my English and also at my exercises. However, this time, my plan looks different. I will not push myself. I will just do it. WHO IS THE MAN? :d I am such a little kid. I am not so perfect as I thought. However, I appreciate and love myself <3 Oh, and not in a bumptious/egoistic way. In a good healthful way. I am going crazy, guys! Call the doctor,call!