i'm so heavy in your arms

I can't be so withdrawn. At 4 PM I'm going somewhere. Whatever where... But I can't be also so.. you know... So I'll go for 2-3 hours. Where? A, if you just knew! Oh, if you just knew, what we could do? Oh, if you just knew, what we could do?... I know sad but I never give a damn about the weather and it never give a damn about me.. And so on.. Does he have a girlfriend? Why is he so withdrawn? Maybe he likes boys more :p No, he doesn't see any reason to do anything of this. Yup, stuck  :| But, we're gonna change it. For sure :d Everything will be dancing and singing. Meanwhile, what we can do is just meet with Paula (?) :)

situation is ... ?

This song is really amazing! <3
I'm wondering.. Why does she feel heavy in his arms? Is it because she cheated on him, maybe she has some secrets.. Or maybe she doesn't love him anymore? Maybe she feels that she doesn't love him anymore? Her love has just disappeared... Hmm, later I need to check the lyrics and I'll know. Today I was shopping with K and D. We were buying some food for my tomorrow party. It's going to be nice :d First, we'll eat the cake. Next we'll talk, listen to music blah blah blah... Then we'll go at meadows. We will la down a blanket and drink and talk. When it gets cold and dark, we'll get back home. I hope that nobody will yuck and get really fucked up... :)) But my mission is to drunk VV. When I do it, he'll tell me everything xd Nice plan, I know.  What about A... :o :o I am fucking confused :|

ohman :o

Today was amazing but if I get fat I'll cryy :[ I spent 3,5 awesome hours with K and an hour with O. First I thought that it will be boring ; she will talk how she's upset and I will have to comfort her. Fortunately, she is again with him and everything is ok. Now I need to learn English, German and English and everything will be perfectly good. Good evening *_*

love is in the air

I was thinking today that I haven't changed so much in my whole life. Of course, I grew up, became more responsible and matured. Now I am not afraid of ghosts, which is a big success for me. However, sometimes I still behave like a child, and I don't think that it's bad. We need to be creative and love like these little creatures <3 Today I will make a dinner, then I will learn English, learn to school and meet with Ola. We are going to do some nice handmade boxes. This morning I overslept a little bit. ACT tests makes me feel sleepy. They'll see! Maybe at evening I will append something :)
Wish you lovely day <3 :)

do I envy her?

Well, I don't think so. Today I haven't gone anywhere yet but I plan to do it. For the most of this morning I've been taking act tests. These one are not so easy as I expected to be. Especially that I don't understand a lot of words in English. Probably N is right. If I don't start use this language, I will say to strange people "English- No,no". Ok, fortunately easy conversations are still easy for me :) And I don't want to be in one class with Mexicans and Hindus. Grrr, terrible... Worse than worst...

today was a pretty day

I am sitting on my balcony. The weather is really nice. It is very warm, but little wind is cooling a man. Today I went to church. It was funny. Then I read a little of my favorite book: " Ziele na kraterze". I <3 it.  I was at my grandpas' grave and at ice creams. Then I tidied up and "fixed" my bike. I need to learn English now, eat a supper and read <3. It will be awesome. Tomorrow I'm going to my cousin. I like her and I know that it won't be a waste of time. It will be precious moment spent with nice and intelligent people. Have I told you that I love intelligent people? Probably no. What a shame. So, now I'm saying: I love gfsd

wisdom of Bianca C

I really don't like blogs about what the author has done today. It's so freaking boring and completely without sense. I mean; is it interesting - I'm bored. Today I spent 3 hours of listening to Metallica. Love you! - ? NO! hell no. Posts should be interesting, easy to read and they should make a little change in our lives. If you write that you ate chocolate, trust me, most of people are just incurious.
  I feel something bitter in my throat. It's because of you! Hmm, tomorrow I'm gonna change it. I just NEED to change it. Life isn't hard.. It's just fucking complicated. You have to choose which one is better even if you don't know benefits and losses. My wisdoms are really precious, appreciate it! :d

pretty much it

love is wonderful. This is what I've written and thought but I wanted to write life. Life and love are a little bit similar. Something it's with it. Life,love, love,life.. Life would be terrible without love. Love is  sensitive as a leaf of a flower, as a gently kiss.. When lips are crushing on lips... When tongues are dancing a ballet... and there's no time. You cannot think about weather, school, friends.. You just think about the taste, smell, touch.. and you love it. Is there something more pleasurable? Maybe sport or sex (this I actually didn't try. I'm just saying what I've heard). Mmmmmmm.... Fantasizing makes me so relaxed and much happier and calmer. Hmm, hmm. Tonight, after jogging I need to talk with M about school. I feel that we could be good friends. Really! 

Well, I wouldn't mind if you just kissed me till I'm dead

I am mental, it's scientifically proven. :o How can I think all day about a person who probably even don't like me. Ok, I'm just saying that. I know that he likes me. The thing is that I don't know HOW MUCH he likes me. I don't know we he doesn't want to meet with me. I don't I know why I do not say much about him. I am not sure if he is dating with me. If I knew that, I would talk about him every night and day. If we meet, I would also be happier. Oh, I'm so stupid. God, emotions has such a big influence for my life. Hmm, but actually I love them. They're really great if they're positive. Bad feelings are also not bad if they have a good ending.

Bianca wishes you good luck

I am a little bit tired, but I have to learn English without any exception. (that's right!). Today we will talk about music. A lot of  >>true<< music fans are convinced that only metal is true. I think that it's a completely bullshit. We cannot say that only one type of music is really great. I really like listen to metal but, c'mon, it's depressing. It's way nicer to listen for example panic! at the disco or arctic monkeys. They're much positiver. I also like more vocalists from "normal" bands. I hate this screaaaaaming. However, I have to admit that melody in metal songs is f******g awesome!! Everyone has his opinion; I don't try to change them, but only prompt to think about it. Have a nice day, and even better night ^^

life just CANNOT be so cruel. I believe in all good things

To be a member of Prospect High School, I need to take a special exam. If my performance will be bad, they will not accept me to their school. Then, I would go to Glenbork (or something else) with Hindus. ( and their level is also lower). It would be terrible, gosh. That's why I NEED TO LEARN English. I need to write and write long and well.I also need to read my book, take exams and learn by heart many of words. I can be so dumb at the beginning. That's why I need to change my style of writing on this blog. Maybe I will write
assess- means to evaluate proficiency- profession validate- validate a ticket, legalize
        What do you think about Blackberry 8520? I think that it would be a great present for me from my dad ^^

vices&virtues

All people have their vices and virtues. Some of us love sexual adventures or they simply can't stop eating. However, at the same time they have their maps and rules which they try to uphold and not to omit. My virtue is to not have sex until I get married. I want to feel clear and nice. Of course, there's a LITTLE possibility that my plan will not work out. But this is what virtues are for. They need to direct our minds in a specific way. We are making an invisible path and we are AT LEAST trying to go on its way.
    The point is that wee need BOTH; vices and virtues. They BOTH help us in our lives. Thet BOTH direct us to go our ways. If we didn't have vices, we wouldn't know that a human can be both good and evil. We cou;dn't know how something tastes sweet or b i t t e r. We couldn't be so happy, because we hadn't have opportunity to cry. However, virtues can give us satisfaction of being good, and only them can make us really, really glad. Virtues also can give us inner peace.
   So, keep us many virtues as you can, but don't give up after some vices, they are also needed!

you're charming, don't you know?

Sometimes I am really glad that actually nobody reads this blog. Now I can write some interesting things. At first, I'm doing gooooooooood. At second, mhm mrrrr... and everything is clear... No, but honestly, it's nice and colorful. We will see with every single day how situation changes. But hmmmm... I'm not quite sure... However, I am not going to challenge this. I have somebody to hug and I like it, I really do. It's so sweet and charming. Today I will listen to the Beatles, what do you think about it? I know, you agree with me; intuition.
                Oh, I have written so little but I feel like I've done more. Maybe it's because I abstracted half of my day in three words? Uhm, probably. Ok, I am going for a supper. Wooohooo! Peace& LOVE

Today was less active but still good

Oh god, today I ate so much, that you can't even imagine. Why? I did it everything because I was hungry and I had a great appetite. Today I will learn to school and other shits. God, I would eat something again. Haha, my huge hunger is still sitting in my stomach. Maybe I am not even hungry. Maybe I have nothing to think and I think about food. It's very probably. Ok, I need to think about something nice. Oh, I got it. What I would do if I ... mmm, that's nice. Yesterday I was thinking a little bit about my future; saying specific: about my future job, the way I will help people. This choice is very important. My work will certainly have a great influence of the way of my thinking and looking at world. It will also change my temper; maybe I will be calmer... NO! :d I am thinking about: * medicine * engineering * law * chemistry
Hmm, it's very hard to choose only one. We'll see :)

at least I do what I should do

It took me few days to recover and get back to normal. Now I'm totally fine.
   What's new? Well, I started to listen to Metallica. I was always thinking that Metallica is a metal band with old grandpas. Haha, I was mistaken. They're not even so old. What's more. They have great music, really great I also admire the vocal. Everything is what I like best: nice vocal and interesting melody. But Panic... will always be very special to me :p
Yesterday I  started to watch "seven pounds", today and tomorrow I will end it. I think that the main character is very unusual, we'll see with time what is the film all about.
I'm getting fat :c I mean, my weight is still 48kg but... My legs are terrible. I only like them with high-heels or platform shoes.
I have really nothing interesting to write. Maybe I will just say bay. Bay.